After reading [[Token Anxiety|"Token Anxiety" by Nikunj Kothari]], a excerpt stuck with me:
> I replaced Netflix with Claude Code. I lie in bed thinking about what I can spin up before I fall asleep, what can run while I’m unconscious. Reading a novel feels indulgent now. Watching a movie without a laptop open feels wasteful. This voice in my head that says “something could be running right now” just doesn’t shut off. I’m not even building a company. I’m just addicted to building my random ideas.
The feeling is all around the post, hidden behind a layer of entrepreneurship and chronic anxiety, but I think it's clearer than ever in this paragraph: what he defines is very, very close to a gambling addiction.
I feel it in my own workflow: while I do use [[Agentic Coding|agentic programming]] at work extensively, the high standards I put on most of the code make the reviewing process break that feeling from time to time. This does not happen when I spin out a PoC or something for a personal project: watching the lines of code come out and running the build to see if the jackpot is coming already. It also leaves this lasting impression: I have found myself checking the progress of agents during a commute or even in the gym, resting in between sets. And it does not really look like that is a healthy behavior, is it?